So i never really felt like this.. i jus found this lol
I like writing and if everything i write from now on is bout u i dont care cuz u will ALWAYS be sum1 i think bout everyday DAD! :)
P.S- My notebook full.
Im sitting in the living room staring at all the pictures aunt j has of you. from when you were 10 years until 1 year ago.
I still remember everything me and you would do. Latest 1st memory i can think of is when me and you went out for my 5th birthday. You took me to this ice-cream place, you didn't ask me what flavor i wanted you just assumed i wanted it. I got mad and once i got done i started crying because i didnt want that flavor. You started laughing at me and i went from tears to a smile because you told the lady at the shop to give me a free ice-cream because i was "a little cry baby."
These memories will never leave big guy, they will forever remain in my heart! I miss you like crazy and i wish i could go back to February 1. Just to see you one more time...But death does not care about anything or anyone.
Your whole life you always told me -"Dont be no bitch nigga" ha i still remember, every single time you told me that i would get mad. You always wanted me to stand up for myself and "be like you." You couldnt see your son being a coward. Always the big things mattered. Im trying to live it how yo would want it. But seems like i cant because one thing that isnt here is stopping me... Your presence.
If i told you how many times i ask myself why you left you wouldnt believe it :( I miss "MY NIGGA" The only man that mattered the only person that can change how i feel. Your the guy i always went to when i wanted to holla at a chick. Ha your advice, I WILL NOT EVER FORGET IT! Sometimes just the stupid shit you said worked. :) I made a promise to you... and im going to keep it!
Its hard knowing youre gone now, its hard living a life without you, its hard knowing that on fathers day we wont drink them nasty beers you liked, life is hard itself. I called you my dad, my nigga, but to me you were more like an older brother. I miss you dad....
